Scary Movies
I do not do scary movies.
Let me repeat.. I DO NOT WATCH SCARY MOVIES.
I hate them.
The last scary movie I saw was Prisoners in 2014. I walked out of the movie theater, I was terrified, and I couldn't sleep for weeks. Everytime I would hear something scary in the house, I would look at Jonny and say "the guy from prisoners is in our house. He's gonna KIDNAP ME."
Jonny leaves for work early in the morning, leaving me home alone to hear the weird noises all by myself. Needless to say, I have learned that watching scary movies is NOT FOR ME. I need to protect myself from the images that replay in my mind and scare me.
The other night we were bored and decided that Mission Impossible number 86 was good for a saturday night. I was pleasantly surprised. I liked it, not scary. .
The next night we decided on Sicario. I watched the trailer and decided that I could do it.
Well 5 minutes into that blasted movie, they are showing bodies that were bagged alive into the walls of this house. I was done. Lord have mercy. They scanned the faces and showed the members of the FBI throwing up at the sight, and stench of bodies that were "buried" alive. Oh gosh it was disgusting. From that point on, I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep that night. Jonny told me we could stop watching it, but I was confident that it would hopefully get better and I was intrigued. Scared, and scarred for life, but intrigued enough to keep watching.
About a half hour later in the movie the scene shows them driving through Juarez, Mexico, and they show these 4 mutilated bodies hanging upside down from what looked like a freeway. I was DONE. I had seen enough, and I told Jonny no more.
I had to explain to him how the images stick in my head, and I can't unsee them. They scare me, and haunt me almost. It's weird, and its been that way since I was a little girl. Just ask Mom and Dad about all the nights I slept on the floor of their bedroom.
Still as a 26 year old woman, I fight fears and scary images that keep me from sleeping. I had Jonny pray for my mind, and asked if he would hold me till I fell asleep. I never actually fell asleep till like 3. Poor Jonny, I made sure some part of his arm was linked to mine all night. The man is a saint.
The next morning I could barely workout at crossfit, because my body was so tired. My effort was pretty pathetic. I was so ticked at myself for watching that stupid movie. One stupid decision kept me from sleeping well, which kept me from working out at my fullest potential. Blast.
The longer I thought about it, the more mad I became. The more it sank in.
Why do we do things WE KNOW are not good for us? Why do we convince ourselves "this time it will be different!" ?
It never is. It usually always produces the same results, leaving us in the wake of our dumb decisions.
I related it to sin in my life. I know this thing, or this decision will not be good for me, but I do it anyways. Maybe we are trying to impress someone. Maybe we are trying to prove something to ourselves. Maybe we are just lazy. Nonetheless our decisions affect us. Dumb decisions, produce dumb results. Wise decisions produce good, healthy results.
I knew watching that movie would give me nightmares. I know I shoudn't watch scary movies.
Yet I convinced myself I would be okay.
Example A:
I know I shouldn't eat at In'n'Out' if I am trying to lose weight, because I will eat all my french fries, the entire burger, and 1200 ketchup packets, because I am Scott Leonard's daughter and he uses a water cup, full of ketchup to accompany his burgers, and that is the way I was raised. You call it blame, I call it raising a child in the way they should go so that when they are older they will not depart from it. Good job Dad.
In'n'out is not bad, but knowing that I want to eat healthy, yet choosing to eat at In'n' out will not produce the results I am looking for. Sometimes I find myself in the driveway convincing myself that I will work it off. That's just lies and I know it. To legitimately work off In'n' Out I would need to run to Wisconsin, and Lord knows I'm not doing that.
Long story short, this whole movie ordeal revealed some things to me about my heart, and the way I go about things in my own world, and lets just say I have some work to do.
If I KNOW something isn't good for me, then It's not good for me, and I shouldn't be doing it, eating it, or watching it.
Reality check.
Proverbs 4:23 States that we should guard our hearts above ALL else, for from it flows the wellspring of life.
I need to be a better care taker of my heart, my eyes, and my mind. God calls us to be holy as He is holy. We will never be perfect, but the Holy Spirit is continually working inside us guiding and directing us in the way we should go. We know when things are not good for us.
My challenge for you ( whoever you may be) would be to start recognizing things that are not good for you, and steering clear of them. Whether it be places, people, or things, guard your heart. Take care of your mind, by preaching truth, and not lies that this time will be different.
Entrust your struggles, fears, hopes and failures to the God who made your heart. He will give you strength to overcome, and give you the peace that comes from surrendering your life to Him.
Let me repeat.. I DO NOT WATCH SCARY MOVIES.
I hate them.
The last scary movie I saw was Prisoners in 2014. I walked out of the movie theater, I was terrified, and I couldn't sleep for weeks. Everytime I would hear something scary in the house, I would look at Jonny and say "the guy from prisoners is in our house. He's gonna KIDNAP ME."
Jonny leaves for work early in the morning, leaving me home alone to hear the weird noises all by myself. Needless to say, I have learned that watching scary movies is NOT FOR ME. I need to protect myself from the images that replay in my mind and scare me.
The other night we were bored and decided that Mission Impossible number 86 was good for a saturday night. I was pleasantly surprised. I liked it, not scary. .
The next night we decided on Sicario. I watched the trailer and decided that I could do it.
Well 5 minutes into that blasted movie, they are showing bodies that were bagged alive into the walls of this house. I was done. Lord have mercy. They scanned the faces and showed the members of the FBI throwing up at the sight, and stench of bodies that were "buried" alive. Oh gosh it was disgusting. From that point on, I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep that night. Jonny told me we could stop watching it, but I was confident that it would hopefully get better and I was intrigued. Scared, and scarred for life, but intrigued enough to keep watching.
About a half hour later in the movie the scene shows them driving through Juarez, Mexico, and they show these 4 mutilated bodies hanging upside down from what looked like a freeway. I was DONE. I had seen enough, and I told Jonny no more.
I had to explain to him how the images stick in my head, and I can't unsee them. They scare me, and haunt me almost. It's weird, and its been that way since I was a little girl. Just ask Mom and Dad about all the nights I slept on the floor of their bedroom.
Still as a 26 year old woman, I fight fears and scary images that keep me from sleeping. I had Jonny pray for my mind, and asked if he would hold me till I fell asleep. I never actually fell asleep till like 3. Poor Jonny, I made sure some part of his arm was linked to mine all night. The man is a saint.
The next morning I could barely workout at crossfit, because my body was so tired. My effort was pretty pathetic. I was so ticked at myself for watching that stupid movie. One stupid decision kept me from sleeping well, which kept me from working out at my fullest potential. Blast.
The longer I thought about it, the more mad I became. The more it sank in.
Why do we do things WE KNOW are not good for us? Why do we convince ourselves "this time it will be different!" ?
It never is. It usually always produces the same results, leaving us in the wake of our dumb decisions.
I related it to sin in my life. I know this thing, or this decision will not be good for me, but I do it anyways. Maybe we are trying to impress someone. Maybe we are trying to prove something to ourselves. Maybe we are just lazy. Nonetheless our decisions affect us. Dumb decisions, produce dumb results. Wise decisions produce good, healthy results.
I knew watching that movie would give me nightmares. I know I shoudn't watch scary movies.
Yet I convinced myself I would be okay.
Example A:
I know I shouldn't eat at In'n'Out' if I am trying to lose weight, because I will eat all my french fries, the entire burger, and 1200 ketchup packets, because I am Scott Leonard's daughter and he uses a water cup, full of ketchup to accompany his burgers, and that is the way I was raised. You call it blame, I call it raising a child in the way they should go so that when they are older they will not depart from it. Good job Dad.
In'n'out is not bad, but knowing that I want to eat healthy, yet choosing to eat at In'n' out will not produce the results I am looking for. Sometimes I find myself in the driveway convincing myself that I will work it off. That's just lies and I know it. To legitimately work off In'n' Out I would need to run to Wisconsin, and Lord knows I'm not doing that.
Long story short, this whole movie ordeal revealed some things to me about my heart, and the way I go about things in my own world, and lets just say I have some work to do.
If I KNOW something isn't good for me, then It's not good for me, and I shouldn't be doing it, eating it, or watching it.
Reality check.
Proverbs 4:23 States that we should guard our hearts above ALL else, for from it flows the wellspring of life.
I need to be a better care taker of my heart, my eyes, and my mind. God calls us to be holy as He is holy. We will never be perfect, but the Holy Spirit is continually working inside us guiding and directing us in the way we should go. We know when things are not good for us.
My challenge for you ( whoever you may be) would be to start recognizing things that are not good for you, and steering clear of them. Whether it be places, people, or things, guard your heart. Take care of your mind, by preaching truth, and not lies that this time will be different.
Entrust your struggles, fears, hopes and failures to the God who made your heart. He will give you strength to overcome, and give you the peace that comes from surrendering your life to Him.
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