Lovely Lee

This morning I was in a rush, I was late to getting to my workout class and I was just not in the best of morning moods. (who even has a good morning mood to begin with?) I saw something, and asked my husband (in an accusatory manner) assuming he had done something wrong without even giving him the opportunity to answer. I used to live that way. I used to watch his eyes, and watch his every move to make sure that he was living up to my precious standards, and when he fell short of them, I made sure to remind him. It was gut wrenching and it stole my joy. Every. Single. Day. I actually never even knew I could feel the freedom I feel now, I always thought I would live that way. By God's grace He rescued me out of that mouse wheel of watching, waiting for him to fail me, failing me, and then crucifying him for failing me. The whole morning I had a pit in my stomach, I knew what it was from immediately as I walked out the door because I used to live this way daily. I hadn't f

I have attempted 400 times  okay maybe actually only 5 times to write a birthday/ thanksgiving post. Some of you may be thinking, "hello! Its Christmas, thanksgiving was so three weeks ago." While that statement is true, I am still living in the beauty of my birthday week. It was a fabulous couple of days that were enjoyed to the fullest & while I won't bore you with every single detail, I will share some of the precious moments I had. Thanksgiving was spent at the beach with the waves crashing in the background as we enjoyed a true thanksgiving feast on a picnic bench with the ocean for our backdrop. It was heavenly. Friday was my 26th birthday and we decided that we would drive up the California coast and enjoy the amazing scenery for my birthday. It was truly breathtaking. Jonny allowed me to stop at all the little shops that I wanted too, I also ate whatever I wanted all day (let's be real) all weekend. We were super blessed to be able t