Lovely Lee

I just put a banana bread in the oven, and while Jonny was watching the football game, I licked the bowl clean because that's how I'm going out with 2016. No traces it was ever there. 2016 was by far the hardest year. Ever.  It was ugly in every sense of the word. I have literally never been so excited for a new year or a fresh start as I am for 2017.  If 2016 was a fruit it would be a prune. Awful and ugly, and used for one purpose only, to flush the system clean. Too much? Sorry. But since you are already 2 brief paragraphs in, I will wrap up 2016 with maybe some hope for 2017. I'm not sure what good came out of 2016, even though I am sure I will look back in 10 years and say that was the year that God literally carried me every step of the way. I always laughed at the footsteps in the sand poem. Well no joke, there was legit only one set of footprints in 2016. His hands carrying me through every single minute, every day, to this moment right now, where I can...

There are moments you wait for your whole life. Ones that seem to pause all of time for just a brief second, when all is right with the world.  This post is not one about one of them. A few weeks ago I thought that I was pregnant.  I had some of the symptoms, and was late. I remember telling Jonny, "babe, I think I might be pregnant." He's so optimistic. "No, you can't be. WAIT.  Do you really think you are?"  I was extremely anxious. I started planning how perfect it would be if I was pregnant. Jonny would even rub my tummy saying "If you're in there, I love you so much." But then I would doubt everything and it was just overwhelming. We were in Texas with my family and I was trying to keep every emotional breakdown that I was having to myself. I was shopping with my mom and Jonny  at wal mart for some groceries and Jonny headed to the check out stand beforehand and got a pregnancy test. Bless his heart he bought the digit...